Fate? Destiny?

Today I went to a Chinese restaurant and after you eat the always give you fortune cookies with the tab. When get one and find a good fortune you get really happy but the truth is they never actually work, they just give you a sense misleading hope. I have been thinking a lot lately on the topic of fate or destiny. This is going to contradict one of my previous post but when you think about it, it seemed almost pathetic of me to write that post "Fate" I really should not let myself get down because of what has happened in the past, I should live in the present day where I live each and every day. I should do my best to work hard to get what I want, I have realized you will not get your future handed to you on a silver platter you have to work for it and not just wait around for something to happen, make it happen. Your fate is in your hands, whatever you do today can effect your future, to do that you need to take the initiative to work for your dream, whether it comes to love, career, or anything else, you need to take the extra mile to make it happen and don't lose hope just keep at it and I'm sure you will like your end result. Just keep your shoulder back, face forward and make it happen. Don't worry there will always be someone to help you through the hard times and to catch you when you fall.



Sorry if my post seems a little weak. I have been feeling under the weather lately. But I hope you enjoyed it. 

Dream

My family calls me a vampire, my friends call me an a flower blooming in the dark. The truth to it all, is that i just want to dream. Go under my cover which protect me from others, put my hand to my cheek, my head to my pillow, then close my eyes to soon fall under a spell. I fall asleep to enter my world, where no one can judge others based off of race or appearance.In my world there is no war, in my world there are only people who live in their dreams too. When I dream, I enter my world, to where I can be myself, it is not a utopia, it is place I wish to call home. Instead of a castle on a cloud it is a town on a mountain, to breath the fresh air, to feel the wind through your hair, feel as free as a bird and soar the sky. My world is for lovers, dreamers and believers. When you dream what do you see? To most you dream your ultimate fantasy, but sadly there are others who find dreams useless.To not have a dream is to not have a goal, never wanting to spread your wings and fly. Your dream is a secret to never be told, most of the time you forget your dreams but you do for a reason somewhere deep within you unconscious mind you have secret to never be told. You may not know it and you might never find out, the secret does not have to come from when you are awake it could be a secret from your dreams in your unconscious mind. Dreams are important they hold our inspiration, our wants, our needs, it also could hold a dirty little secret.

Seasons and Emotions

Ever notice how people are like the seasons. How sad and depressed people who dress in black are kind of like winter. Think about it, during cold winter days and nights we add more layers to keep us warm but only that it is to protect us, almost like how those people are protecting themselves from the harsh world, it’s not that they like don’t like people aka the weather, but just want to protect themselves from the reality and danger of going out there without any form of protection. How Happy and Energetic people who always wear light colors are like summer. During the blazing hot days of summer people tend to wear less, like how those people always show so much emotion and so out there, living in complete bliss without any worry in the world, they keep shedding layers. Unaware that if they keep doing this they will have to face this world head on, and eventually to the core aka absolutely naked, with no protection and completely open to the world. But in some weird sense I get the feeling that they have some logic behind it, like how living in bliss is also a form of protection, living in bliss can mean that you are unaware but it can also mean not worrying about the little things. So I guess in some sense we all have some logic to whom we are and how we act. Spring and fall people have a nice equal balance, But leaning towards one side a little more. So thus it mean we all think somewhat alike even people who may seem complete opposite can at least one thing in common. Preparing for the world, living in bliss and harmony or living in self defense and harmony, so yes we all think somewhat alike.

What can I say?

When I walk down these halls and I see you smiling I can’t help but smile myself. I want to be able to tell you how I feel but I don’t want to risk ruining our friendship. Besides you have changed my way of seeing this world, you taught me how to stand up for myself, and how to say “no”. So I don’t want interfere with your life, I’m positive that if I did I would make things awkward, even though you love another girl, I’m okay. Who knew that I would fall for you, it’s funny because I promised myself that I would not fall another guy, just to avoid heart ache. So even though you may see me as merely a friend or just the girl in your class, I will always remember what you did for me that day. I will use what you taught me to make myself a better person. As I look out the window on this cold winter night, I wonder to myself, who will be next to impact my life, a new friend, an inspiration, or a lover. You never know what life will throw at you next, just living my life taking it in step by step and day by day. I want to experience all of life’s joys and living to the fullest. Can I tell you my secret? I love you.

Winter Lesson

These winter days are getting colder, but even so my heart will remain to stay warm. For I have now realized that you don’t have to have someone love you to be happy all you need are people care. Thanks to friends, family, and my crush, they all have helped me see a little light. I should be out there having fun and doing my best to make myself happy. All my life I have tried to do my best to be kind and gentle to everyone but someone special told me that it’s good to be nice but you don’t have to apologize if you make one mistake. He told me that I need to take better care of myself so I won’t suffer while making others happy he said be yourself. These words touched me, it was amazing. When he spoke those words it was like he was angel to pull me out of the darkness, a boy who gave me a hand to help me up. So I’m perfectly fine as long as I know people do care.

Thank you for reading!