I Just Don't Know Anymore

I look at this world once again and yet again it has changed in my perspective. I look around the classroom with my headphones on so there is not other sound that the music pounding in my ears. The whole world seem to slow down and it seems a little unreal. I just don't know what to think of this world anymore, I don't what to think of humans or even who I am. It's like I've been sucked into this duplicate world and there is a truth that has yet to be discovered. I feel like currently this world this world does not consist of the aware and bright humans that we were once but now just a bunch of puppets being controlled. I kinda feel like everything I have worked for has been all for nothing. I don't who I am or what my purpose is and the strange thing is that I'm not afraid. I want to know but I'm not afraid of the truth, even when I contemplate these thing now I no longer start to hyperventilate and have anxiety attacks. I don't what I'm going to do or if i will do anything at all but i wont be an unaware and oblivious doll. I understand that it is weird to question this world but although it is my home I feel like I don't belong. Society has never fully accepted my race yet but it's not that I don't feel accepted in society but more of the fact of how I don't feel accepted in this world. It's odd, strange, and I don't know what to think of my mind but all I know is that I'm glad I'm able to ponder these things and I get the wonderful opportunity to share it to the world without the fear of being ridiculed.