Is It Lust Or Love?

I sometimes like to wonder if about the main things of life, Birth, Childhood, Adulthood, Love, and Death. They are very vague subjects so my ideas never stop flowing and there was one thought that came over me recently, is there such a thing called love? Some say that there no such thing as love only lust, then there are others who say that there is love and that it is the closest thing that us human have to magic. Since I was little I always figure there was love since no one in my family ever divorces and the couples in family are always so happy together, I thought there were soul mates the one person in the world you could love. The love has only been lost through death no divorce, but as I grew older I began to see the real world and how divorces happen quite often in reality. So now I grow quite curious on this topic of love, I have asked many people this and ask “Is it lust or love?” It turned out half said lust and the other half said love. So still today I ask myself is there love? Can you truly love someone with your whole heart? Loving them with your whole being? I would like to believe there is such a thing as love but seeing as how I have never come even slightly close to that feeling with someone I have no idea. Maybe one day I will truly find out the answer to my question it may take years or it may never happen but I still want to believe there is such a thing as love.

What Do You See When You Look At Someone?

What do you see when you look at a person? Do you judge them immediately? What do you judge them on?  Appearance? Race? Or how they talk? If you saw an old lady fall down would you run to help her? Most people don’t. That it is what is wrong in society today people believe that if it isn’t about them they don’t have to do anything, it true that you don’t have to, but it is the right thing to do. A lot people don’t give damn about anything that doesn’t involve them, it’s wrong. To those who actually care about other people whether or not you are involved, I bow my head in respect. Most people today in society are selfish and greedy people. They need a wake up call to remind them that we are all living humans; we should treat each other with the same respect and kindness as everyone else. I am not saying that we need to completely turn over a new leaf but I am saying that we need to remember to at least give each and everyone the same respect and the same human rights. I do know that everyone is a little racist but that does not mean we should commit it hate crimes against others. They say all bystanders are innocent but in truth, they are as bad as the people committing the crime. Why? Because they did nothing to try to stop it, I understand if it puts your life in danger but if you see a person being bullied then stop it, intervene. Do what’s right.  

In This Life

I can’t help but think that this life is a lie, just a dream. It is almost too good to be true, I have suffered and cried but now it feels like it is impossible for me to have suffered so long then suddenly have things change to the better. I did nothing to get to this happiness and it happened so suddenly and now I have friends and people who actually like me? I feel like this was all a dream and that when I wake up, it’s all going to go back to misery. I guess I have lived in the dark so long that it feels weird being outside and living life to fullest, experiencing the happiness and joys of life. Maybe this how life should be, it’s just too new and different to me. If this how my life will be from here on out then maybe I can get used to this feeling, this feeling of warmth, and this feeling of love. I need to get used to this life or my soul will always remain in constant fear of the darkness, I need to learn that this light, this world, this life is now where I will remain. I think I still need assistance to help me get on my feet, but with a little help I think I can get better and learn how to live in this life.

Love? It Can't be? Can It?

I am so confused. What should I do? We fight like the rat and cat from the zodiac calendar but then everyone says it’s a love hate relationship. They say we actually love each other but just keep it inside. Do I love him? It can’t be, he is cold and distant, and he calls me names and makes fun of me. But then he has his moments where he is actually nice to me. I can’t love him, it’s not possible. But the why can’t I get him out of my mind, I wonder if he ever thinks about me. I though I hate him, I though we were complete opposites. I’m so clumsy and nice, he is strong and mean. If he hates me then why does he tease me so often? Even if we started to develop feelings for each other, there is no chance of us going out. I am a sophomore and he is senior he will be graduating in a couple months. They are so mean, making me think so much about this and why does he have to be like that.

Karma. A cruel mistress or an angel

Karma is a beautiful thing, it balances out the good and the bad. Like yin and yang, one can not live without the other. No matter how much your life may be bad or depressing karma will serve you, it may take even years. When everything seems lost just keep your head up and believe that it will get better. Karma will also punishes those who have hurt you, fear not vengeance and justice will be served. She can be a cruel mistress but then can be kind and sweet like an angel. There is not one person in the world who has died without experiencing both joy and sorrow,  ask anyone. It is a part of life that each and everyone of us must experience. Do you believe she is a cruel mistress, an angel, or do you believe she is a simple part of life. Your answer tells what you think life is about, but know this you will one day understand how karma can be both.


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New Year, New Life

Time to say goodbye to 2011 and welcome 2012. I' m glad this year has finally come to an end, I can say goodby to the pain and say goodbye to those who have hurt me. At the end of the year karma served me well, after all those years of hurt and pain I finally got to see the joys of life and learn what it's like to be truly happy. The years of hurt is gone and I can welcome joy and happiness. The new year starts and I have high hopes for 2012. Already this year has started out great, at a New Year's Eve party I met someone, someone who was kind and gentle, we shared laughs and danced like there was no tomorrow. He played music for me on his piano and it felt amazing, the notes were dancing in my head and the sound just flowed together like water going down a stream. The year started out with a new friend and it made me happy, all my life I was judged constantly based of my race and for some reason people avoided me because I was not white. But when I met him he just didn't seem to care, he talked to me like I was no different than everyone else. I do have friends who never cared of what race I was but never from a guy. It made feel happy inside , it felt nice being treated like everyone else. I have a feeling that this will be a good year for me, I think I can live in peace and happiness now. I think I'm going like this year and I won't let anything ruin this year for me not even if the world comes to an end.